Victory?

It seems that I may have scored a small victory in Court yesterday. For tonight at least, it could be that I beat odds, even if only very slightly, that divorced Dads face in this country by the hour; the Court lowered my child support by a hundred and eight bucks per month. But, despite the contest, I know my daughter continues to suffer, and no matter what I do, for me, my love remains cradled in frustration, nervousness, and the hum of miles and years of a struggle I wanted no part of in the first place, and weighs heavily upon my spirit; I'm tired...

For this Court appearance, I thought I'd employed, under my skin, my toughest breastplate. As it turns out, my best attempts at toughness were met with near paralysis; I was frightened beyond description when my time came to go through the swinging gate, and speak to the Judge; what a fucked feeling....People shouldn't have to be exposed to such scrutiny, especially those who really love in their souls like I do. Family Court today is not the forum Thomas Jefferson and the others envisioned when they set the shit up....Stress, could be my ultimate undoing.......Peace

Yikes!

Feeling a little nervous, to say the least; I have a Family Court hearing tomorrow.

Among other things, my stupid ex-wife #2 has provided "data" stating I'm $12,000+ in arrears in child support, which is complete and total bullshit. So, here I go again: A divorced Dad into the "forum" of the Family Law Industry.....I'll report back soon.....Hasta la vista, baby.....

Peace.......

Acheeeeuuuwww!

Got cha! My first cold symptoms since getting off chemo, May, 2005; sneezing like hell, runny nose, agh! My doctor told me I probably wouldn't get sick for quite a while after the chemotherapy treatment concluded, and he was right...New Years eve tomorrow, Oh-Eight is here! Big family court hearing for me on 1/7/08 and I'm feeling a little antsy about it; anyone who knows, understands The Family Law Industry is not for Dad's, but I have no choice this time. The preparation for hearing has been close to all consuming of my time for the past four weeks, and I finished my document gathering just today. I think I'm as prepared as I'm going to get; wish me luck, and I'll have a full report next week!

Hoping the best for a positive New Year and hoping those I know and care about have a better year than last. Don't know about you, but it's been kinda rough round heeya!

Peace..........

New Year? - Let's hope!

Great, and convivial, time was had by just about all who attended Christmas at my Mom's house. Which, by the way, and if it matters, is where I reside too...My older daughters had a great time and received some very nice things from Santy Claus and their family....I've been sorta wrapped with the entire Tiger-kills-zoo-patron thing; as I say from time to time "I can think of a few ways to go, but that ain't one of em" Spooky.....

As Oh-Eight approaches, gotta wonder what the hell is going to happen, as is known, Oh-Seven sucked....I must confess, I'm ready for that snap on Pennsylvania Avenue to vacate the premises; fuck! Glowing economy? Unemployment low? Bullshit!

Now I admittedly, converse with pretty small circles of folks, but I don't know anybody who is enjoying the proverbial "day at the beach" in their lives right now.....Oh, enough Pablo, sheessh!

To the bed with a sniffle, a sneeze, and a cough -

Sneak under the blankets, with shiver and broth -

Arise in the morning, with clear nose and eyes -

Hope that my head cold has met it's demise -

...Ah, at least I try. Some nights are better than others. To you who care; X O

....Peace

Miles in the Waiting

Picture is of two pretty, and important gals in my life; my middle daughter and my Mom -

Being limited by a strenuous bunch of BS dumped on me at the first of November, my Merry Blissmiss plans have been strained, as my body and soul continue to be, by crap much of which is out of my control.....I'm litterally quite tired and, grow weary of always having something or someone, not of my doing or desire, impeding what had been a clear drive for simple smoothness in my life; simple smoothness.....Had to get something for my youngest today, and so I did, venturing "out amongst em"....In L.A. I believe I've finally learned: Shop early. Which is what I'd intended to do until the bomb bopped me in November...Anyway, trying not to whine, but shit "what'd I do?"!

Looking forward to 2008?

Geeezzzuuusss! 2008!

A father's love...
"A father's seldom-spoken love sounds clearly through the years -sometimes in peals of laughter, sometimes through happy tears. Perhaps they have to speak their love in a fashion all their own. Because the love that fathers feel is too big for words alone"- Author unknown

Passion gone?

Ooof, Christmastasio is nearly here....Certainly, so far at least in my life, things are turning out to be a bit more of a creepy fairytale than I'd thought they'd be; Demons, (some, admittedly, of my own creation) monsters, dark trails, have replaced pumpkin carving, stocking stuffers, and days at the beach. However, none of this stuff I anticipated when riding my skateboard, on a nice afternoon, in So Cal in 1969- Sheeesh....

Priced a gallon of milk this week?

Seems we're a bit short on heroes, champions, saviours, people of truth, or "the ordinary" folk baby boomers expected(?) at this point; things are almost making Nixon look good. Well, how I see it anyway.....Like Jim Carrey said in The Cable Guy - "Weird" - Ya think?

Mucha lluvia in Los Angeles two days in a row......Drought over? Hope so.....Peace

Blown - Steam, Argh!!

The indicator was up, just as was my ire, and so it seems that my demons conspire - Against me the odds tend to show and constrict, and now it's my transpo that contradicts -

Does the car pick a time to both supply and deceive? Just wanted to get there have coffee and breathe - Now again I am challenged, and must dig out my wrenches - to twist and to alter, to replace the damn menace. - Today the Acura warned me that attention was due, some leaking, and steaming and it shut down too - So now I must fix it so that I can drive on, and pray that the timing belt doesn't end up on the lawn....

Well, I had a meltdown today, actually, it was my 90 Integra, bless it's heart. Stood by me and I have done nothing to maintain it....Check your belts and hoses people.....Peace